2ww

Not too bothered about the 2ww this month. Considering we're almost a week in already and I haven't been INSANELY DWELLING on every twinge or hormonal spurt. I feel fine, slightly crampy and I've gone off curry. But I am not second guessing my body (yet) and I am going camping next week, which should take my mind off the upcoming period.

Actually ovulating now. I feel on top of the world, much as I did when I ovulated the egg that became Fatboy. I'm hopeful. Can't describe why, I just am.

Ovulating on D16? Surely some mistake!
Ah well, better do that dance just in case :D

Bum

So, I'm literally surrounded by pregnant people, reminding me of their abundant fertility.

This doesn't so much upset me as make me want to shout MEH at them. The woman at work INFURIATES me by constantly moaning and being a wet rag because she's TIRED when the reason she's tired is because she did a 400 mile round trip at the weekend. OWN. FAULT. STOP. BITCHING.

I really want this cycle to be THE cycle, but if it isn't, then maybe I will get a blood test to confirm ovulation. My period only finished yesterday - it's RIDIC.

I also managed to horrifically sunburn myself on Sunday and still feel crispy to the touch. My shoulderblades and collar bone are so HIDEOUSLY painful that wearing clothes is kinda hard. Nudity ftw. And Fatboy keeps PINCHING it. Not. Nice.

Cycle 6

So naturally, as soon as I post that I'm hopeful, I start bleeding.
I was very upset last night. Still am. That's officially six months of trying over five cycles. There will now be more than two years between them which is the one thing I was really desperate to avoid. I'm debating whether to start temp charting, even though it seems HORRIBLY CLINICAL, at least then I'd have more of an idea what was happening.
I dreamt a year ago that I had a baby girl next april. So perhaps I will.

Oooh, hopeful

So, I'm not on yet. I presume I ovulated on the 18th June, making me a day late. I know I ovulated before I got ill, and I got ill on the evening of the 18th.
I did test yesterday, but it was at lunchtime at work and was negative. I have no tests at home, so I haven't done one today.
I've got no spotting. Normally I spot for a couple of days, then bleed heavily for two days, then lightly for another 4-6 days. My periods ARE LONG. This cycle is LONG - 38 days now.
I have felt sick every morning and evening since thursday. My husband remarked that my 'arse is looking bigger' this morning, which happened when I was pregnant with Fatboy. I keep getting indigestion. I'm irritable to the nth degree and ANGRY. I don't know.
I shall test in the morrow if I haven't come on. And then probably come on immediately. And weep.

I would give anything for a positive test today of all days.

But I'm crampy and irritable and WEEPY and daresay my period is incoming. I haven't tested, despite being a day late, because I just cannot bear the disappointment. If I don't come on by Saturday, then I'll test. But I don't feel pregnant. At all. Just miserable.